the start of something new.

So, I watched this movie and it changed my perspective on so much. She started a blog and she wrote in it every night about pretty much her life and all the experiences she was and are still going through. So it gave me the motivation to start blogging again, and I know I've been lacking and always do lack on this stuff but I'm gonna really start to do it again. So here's the start of something new.

Need Help

So I know I rarely post on here. I want to post more but I don't know what to write about. I also know that not many people see this. The people who do see this. What do you want me to write about? What do you want to read about? Let me know in the comments below and my next blog post will be about whatever you suggested.

What will 2016 bring?

Ill be the first to say that I changed throughout 2015. I've made plenty of mistakes, I grew some enemies, more friends, increased my stress and did a lot better in school than last year, The more involved you are the more stressful it is becoming. I remember in the beginning of the year being so excited to see how much I will change from just 12 months. I have. A lot, Not all in bad ways but not just in good. In just this past 2 month I have become the most stressful I have ever been. For the past couple of weeks before my school went on break, I didn't want to go to school because of the stuff people we saying about me. From all the rumors that my "cousin" (and I put that in quotes because our parents were just really close so it was almost like family) said about me, to all the bad things my ex boyfriend was saying about me. I would go into school looking around and thinking this person thinks badly of me and for something I didn't even really do. Now I could talk about this topic and write a whole novel about it, but for right now I'm just going to sum it up. My now ex boyfriend started to like me and I didn't particularly like him at first. After he talked about me to my friends and his I tried to ignore it and give him a chance. Well that didn't work out as well as I planned. There was this kid who I had to huge crush on in the beginning of 2015. He finally one day actually noticed me and talked to me so I panicked and did what any girl would do if there crush noticed them. No not kissed them or anything that extreme. I broke up with my boyfriend after 2 weeks and not because of that guy, but just because I wasn't feeling like we were a couple like it was in the beginning, my feelings were not as strong anymore. After we broke up, he found out about that other guy and started making up rumors about how I broke up with him to go after and date the other guy, which was not true at all. After that whole incident, I hated going to school knowing some, most, people thought that-that was the truth. The mural of this pointless story is that if people think something about you that isn't true, it shouldn't matter what they think, it should only matter that you know what the truth really is.

I know not many people read these and honestly I'm okay with that. I started this to express my feelings, to make my stories and life lessons come to life so that if one day someone who is dealing with the same problems as I am reads this and can relate, and it makes them feel better about the situation and themselves- that's really what I'm aiming for.

2015, yes wasn't really my year but now that its 2016. Its a new chapter in our lives, a new beginning. I now understand that nothing should stand in your way of your expectation on life. Anything you do and want to do, you shouldn't end up regretting it in a week, month, day, year or even years. You should look back on all those things and say "all of those choices, mistakes, opportunities are what has brought me here today."

So now ask yourself what will 2016 bring to you?

Highschool changes people..

Highschool likes to change a lot of people. High school. Where you can go from being at the top of the chain, 8th grade, to the bottom, freshman year. You change, your friends change, everyone changes. There's no way around it. You experience many new faces. Some may be your friends, some may be your enemies. 4 years. That's it. 4 years of studying, learning, and getting good grades. You may meet some of your best friends in high school. I did. You meet new people, guys, you go through friendships and relationships really fast. You go to your class one day and see a boy. You make eye contact but think nothing of it. He was just friends with your best friend. There will be boys that you like who don't like you. Boys who like you that you only think of as friends. It's life. Just move on and forget about it. Highschool shouldn't change everything about you. It should just make you more grown up but not anything more. 

is love worth it? (part 2)

So many girls dream of the day they get married. The Proposal. What kind of dress are they going to wear? When is it going to be? Who are they going to invite. Is all that really worth the stress? Some people think weddings should be a big deal, and some don't. But do you ever wonder how many girls really don't care if they never have a wedding. So many girls have a high expectations on wedding. They could have a great wedding but get disappointed because it didn't go as they imagined. A survey revealed that twenty-one percent of engaged, married, or divorced women were left disappointed by their marriage proposal. Wedding vows are probably the biggest part about getting married. But why do we say them if you might regret or break all the promises you just made. "to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part" Eventually, many people don't have and hold each other until death. I personally, don't see the point in marriage. Divorce is a huge part and I never want to go through that. I can barley stay in a relationship for a while. Forty-one percent of first marriages end in divorce. Sixty percent of second marriages, and seventy-three percent of third marriages. Maybe my opinion on getting married will change. This is my personal opinion about getting married. Many marriages have end up until death. My great-grandparents were married for more then 60 years.

Long Distance Relationships

A couple of days ago, i got a question asking me "would you rather have a LDR or a boyfriend who you see everyday and is a little obsessed?" This was my answer: I honestly, did not know how to answer this. But after thinking i answered "I dont really know how to answer this. Most people would say "the one who is a little obsessed but lives close" I honestly dont care as long as us both are willing to work on the relationship then it shouldn't matter, how far apart you are from each other. Long distance relationships aren't a huge deal, I mean I get it you probably dont really see them that often since they do live far away. But If our love is mutual and we BOTH are willing to make it work. I would rather go with the long distance relationship."  ^^ All of that kinda explains everything. If you dont know what a LDR is (long distance relationship---which most people already know) a romantic relationship between two people who live far apart and so are unable to meet on a frequent basis.I personally actually find it adorable that people are in long distance relationships. They dont have to be together every second of the day and if you love the other person enough to only talk to him and see his face on a screen.. I think that every one with a LDR are amazing people. 

"Perfect Boyfriend"

Perfect boyfriends dont exist. We imagine people and call them perfect, because we dont know other word to describe them. Nobody is perfect. Even though in the Urban Dictionary: Perfect boyfriend means: Someone who is simply amazing, takes your breath away, leaves you with a smile on your face. The boy of your dreams. Someone who'll always be there for you, cheers you up, never makes you upsets, doesn't lie or cheat. ALWAYS honest. Reminds you how lucky he is to have you, tells you how beautiful you are regardless what you look like. The boy you never want to lose. The one you love no matter what and he loves you no matter what. 
This doesn't make them perfect. So someone who tells white lies aren't perfect? It just doesn't make sense. The definition of perfect is: having all the required or desirable elements, qualities, or characteristics; as good as it is possible to be. 
So your saying if someone doesnt have the best qualities or characteristics your not perfect. I believe everyone is perfect in their own way inside and out. But "perfect boyfriend"... Its saying that guys have to do these thing in order to be categorized as perfect. I may be wrong and it might sound stupid but it should be called a good/great boyfriend. No matter what guys do they shouldnt be pressured into doing these things just so they could be called "The Perfect Boyfriend"